Lets talk about dreams & life being short. Oh well..,-Shrugs-

Was reading Von's blog and this topic came to mind.
Dreams..It's really hard to have dreams to be achieve for average people like you & me.
Dreams seem to be only achievable for people who are financially well to do but I know it's not true lah. There are so many good examples out there and I know the main problem is myself.

When you talk about 'dreams' while you were young, you tend to link it to ambition.
"What do you want to be when you grow up?" A question so simple & often prompted when you were in primary school will lead you to believe that a dream is like what you want to be when you grow up.

A teacher, a lawyer, a doctor, a singer,an actor... whatever,whichever you had written was your dream.
There are really many people who achieved those young dreams and many deviated.

Many of us struggled in between in leading a life that is so far from your dream and trying (very hard) to live a life that's fulfilling at least.
Let's just face the truth. It IS very easy to fall back to the mundane nonsenses of life.
Work especially kills it off. Just today, I had another BAD day at work. I hate it how luck falls short so fast & the good hardly stays more than a week.
I am crossing my fingers so damn hard that tomorrow and Friday would be kinder to me.

So what is life is short? Life is short doesn't mean that you will get to choose what you wanna do. Not all of us at least.I guess most of us may not have such privilege.

I know we live only this once (Not taking about maybe there's life afterwhich. You won't get to remember either.) and that notion is pretty scary still.
I have not live enough to experience what I want to and I do not know if I would have the chance to taste what I desired.
But living only this once & life as short as it may be, still doesn't permit me to have the thought of doing whatever damn things I dream of.

Could I choose to quit my damn job & live every artless moment?
Could I choose to squander every damn cents I have & cover every single inch of the map?
Could I choose to ignore whatever ties I have here & reside in an unknown beautiful island, seeking my solace & romance?

If I have dreams, I would want not to be anyone. I lied in my composition, in my resume, to the employers, to my relatives even.
I don't want to be a teacher when I grow up.
I don't want to be an air stewardess when I grow up.
I don't care about a fucking leading edge career & I never like HR.
I just don't have a dream that is an ambition since young. While you can wag my fingers telling me I am a wasted soul, I tell you I don't give a fuck about you cos' this is me and I don't change.

I have a wanderer soul within. Free spirited?I dunno.
If there is one thing I would do, I would love to travel around (not taking money into a realistic consideration. The keyword here is IF.) leaving a footprint all over.

If you have a dream, might as well make it big.

I know that is not so damn unachievable but I have my limits.
My youth, my family(my parents would never consent), the money (Being a so not ambitious person, how would big money ever falls?) and alot.

Thus I live by a day by another. I am content with daily happiness acheived, be it a good date with Jason, a good dinner with friends or some solitude acheived.
I am not those that map out life step by step, point by point & hell yes, I know this is unhealthy.

Sigh..One cant be perfect, can we?
Sometimes I yearn for someone who will be the opposite of me so it balances out & perhaps the dream would be acheived...partially?
Yet sometimes I long for someone who is just like me so we will agree with each other & make the happiness of each well spent day doubles.

That someone wont be the same person, unfortunately.

Life..can't be perfect too, can it?